church talk & vulnerability

I haven’t listened to a sermon in months. My younger self – from even just a few years ago – would be flabbergasted by this. I was in church for years. I loved church; I threw my whole self into it. The music, the scriptures, the sermons: all of it brought me so much comfort,

Loss and Chronic Pain

Earlier this week, on August 2, 2022, my cat Frodo was euthanized. Similar to our other cat Snowflake – who died on May 8, 2020 – he had blood work done which showed he was starting to have kidney failure. He had lived a good long life, and we didn’t want things to get worse

Resurrection: Literal or Metaphorical (or both)?

I recently saw a tweet asking Christians if or how their lives/faith would change if the resurrection of Jesus could be definitively proven as false. Reading through the responses was interesting as it presented many different people’s perspectives and experiences and why they chose to see resurrection as literal or metaphorical (or some of both).

A Poem for Holy Week

if the pain the grief the ache the loss the longing  associated with death  like on Friday and Saturday  feel far more present and real than the hope the joy the beauty  the goodness of life and resurrection  like on Sunday  you are not alone you are loved may you one day find love  grace

Politics: My Previous Avoidance, And Current Engagement

If you know me in real life, you probably know that for a long time, any kind of remotely political discussion (or any discussion of anything remotely controversial, for that matter) was very stressful for me. I want to explain why that was, and why even though it still can be stressful for me, I’m

Your Faith Is Valid

If at this moment you only have the capacity/time/energy to read one article, please read Kyle’s that I’ve linked below. Christians repeatedly and notoriously invalidate the faith of many minorities, including disabled people and LGBTQ+ people, but also BIPOC. I’m more aware of/educated on this being directed towards disabled people and LGBTQ+ people, but in

My Top 5 Posts

Due to some recent pain flares, I didn’t really have it in me to create a new post for this week. I was looking through some blog prompts and I saw one that was to share your top 5 posts. So I looked through my stats, found my 5 most-viewed posts, and am re-sharing those

My Story: Faith and Chronic Illness

TW/CW/CN – chronic illness, religious abuse/trauma, suicide, self-harm   This is a topic I’ve written on before, but I haven’t really gotten into the earlier days of chronic illness for me and how it impacted my faith at the time. I was 12 years old when, on a Friday night in September 2010, on the

Being Sick And Having Faith Isn’t An Oxymoron

On October 31, 2019, a woman whose leadership I’d been under for a time in my middle and high school years passed away. She had been diagnosed with cancer a few years prior, and after several months of treatments, she was declared cancer free. Then she got cancer a second time. I have no doubt

Beliefs: What I Refuse, and What I Choose

I refuse to believe in a god who insists you must look or act or think or feel a certain way to be loved and welcomed. I refuse to believe in a god who would see me as superior or inferior to others for any reason (including sexuality, gender, political beliefs, religious beliefs, health, education